It was very scary. I felt extremely lost in the world, wasn't sure what the next step would be, or how to get out of the dark cold that I had been in for many years. Before treatment I felt extremely hopeless. I did not think there was a future for me, I could not see, you know, a month ahead, a year ahead, and anything. I was just kind of giving up at that point. I realized it was time for change kind of within, like, a millisecond. I was with my best friend. We've known each other since five years old, and I just looked at her. She was, like, just looked so happy, and I realized that I was so far away from what she was feeling, and in that moment, I just told her, I don't know what to do. I need help. I had struggled with addiction for about 10 years, but always knew that my addiction stemmed from untreated mental illness. With the experiences I've had in my life, it only drove me further into substances because I just didn't know how to cope or move forward without them. I preferred coming to desert recovery centers because their approach is mental health first, along with that addiction and substance abuse. And when I saw that, I was, like, 100% this was for me. Now, 29 days sober, got through all of my lows while being here, completely sober. And I haven't done that since I was about 15. First, I would say, don't wait, get the help now. I wish I did this. I'm young, but I still wish I did this like five years ago. You can get help, regardless of the pain that you feel. There's no one big traumatic event that needs to happen in order for you to say, I need help.